Let it all out

Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed

cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need

and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency

**and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there**

and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength

and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me

reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you

and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light

---I saw superman on friday, and i was told it wasnt that good...well IT IS EXCELLENT!! Sat after work i drove to Bradley, and spent time with Ruthie and her friends, yay, i wish she lived closer.

I'm tired from the drive back today, but the lyrics i posted by Relient K, are good ones to ponder on. Not only do i love the song, but i like thinking about certain issues that this song pertains to in my life.

In church today in Bradley, the preacher said this, and goodness did it ever make me think:: One cannot substitute an excuse for changes in their life.

Hope all have a good 4th! i'm certainly going to have a blowout with my firecrackers!

Peace~Al

It's not always perfect...

Ah, so not too much has happened since my last post, mainly just work, and oh yeah work.

Good things:: Next week, i see my dearest Ruthie, and get to spend the w/e with her.

Also, Danielle called me this week to inform me that her friend thought i was cute and wanted to meet me, and it made my day.

I like making money..yay!

I looooove my friends, they make me laugh. Sometimes, i need a god laugh.

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BAd THings =( ::: I have been overeating. Damn chips and sweets to hell!!

I bruised my wrist at krav maga, it hurts.

i miss having a regular routine.

I don't like it when it feels like i have a pit in my stomach, even though i dont know why i feel like there's a hole in me..

jerks. they suck ass.

Okay, this post has been swell--toodles~

Al

relief is on its way...

soo im back from florida, it was a blast!! too bad AR is miles away from the beach. Today felt like the good ole days, hanging out with all my AGS peeps at the reunion. Its amazing how fast old memories pop into conversations with people you havent seen in a year..in just a matter of minutes!! I saw so many ppl, and it hit me just how much i missed them.

Yesterday, i found out just how much i over exaggerate things..quite humorous to think that i was stressing, and getting flustered at unreturned phone calls for no reason..my tendancy to jump to conclusions was pretty much thrown in my face, so guys..im giving patience a new try.

Today i recieved my hendrix academic course planning guide...ahh i feel soo many emotions!! At first i was excited, and i still am..but im starting to become nervous, confused, and sick to my stomach. Molecular biology? WHAT THE HELL AM I THINKING??? I pray that im not overwhelmed too much. I love challenges, and haha this is going to be a challenge.

Ok guys, i have enjoyed my time on vacation, but unfortunatley i must return to work on monday. erk! I also should be starting at Starbucks soon, once i take my drug test haha!!

So long for now..i'm tired-

Al

It's About Time...

HEYYY my Lovely sweets!

soo this week i have been working lots..in fact i'm about to go into work here in a bit, i have to work from 3-7 on a friday, poo.

Tomorrow, i leave for PERDIDO KEY with the fam!! yessss! i have been needing the beach so bad!!

Peace out for a week~

Al

Currently Listening I Don't Want to Be Pt.1 By Gavin Degraw see related

All i ask for is honesty...

well im really excited to be done with lutheran...im moving on to a different phase of my life now! yay? I started work at success vision on Friday, a day after i got back from the buffalo which was FANTASTIC even though im not a camper...anywho i LOVE my job. i mean its very demanding..cuz cutsomers can be bitches, but i love my fellow opticians? i think thats the right lingo..

Anywhos..after i get back from vaction, im going to begin work at the Baptist Hospital Starbucks..so come see me and i will gladly make ya some coffee!! Im going to be one busy gal this summer..thank goodness i leave for florida on Saturday

I talked to my dear ruthie on Thursday, and it made me anticipate June 10th the day of the AGS reunion!!! Ah i miss all those peeps soooo much!

So today i had some time to just sit down and think about my life... i must say i sorta made myself mad; does that make me crazy?  I thought over issues bothering me such as lies, gossip, un-returned phone calls (which can really make a person feel crappy), and family stuff.Sometimes people are not who you think they are, and well they dont follow through what they say they will do. and that hurts. I came to that conclusion..i know im a genious..

Alrighty guys..im xanga-ed out for a while...

Lots of love for all~

AL